The Temptation of Saint Jerome

I once was a big motherfucker

sitting right next to the heavens

Pleased to be a white log burning under the red skies

Troubled only to know how much will God make

with each one of my prayers

Fixing the daily dose of sorrows and anger

Crying out for my angel wings while

I shouted the whole earthly hell

But since I became what I never wanted to be

I transformed myself into a snail, a roach or a worm

Sizzling out my soul

Wandering and wondering how is it that my life was not the holy wilderness I dreamed of

Somehow

I destroyed it by feeding the doubts with hate and yelling curses at love at dawn

Everytime I found me being fucked in the heart by some rowdy grin

Destroying my reflection through wild storms where my voice was trapped

There I could see God, whispering blessings through devils, assholes and cunts

And then, looking to the ground I knew my redemption were sins

Each one of them that barked and ripped my skin

That´s how I would be a saint, a newborn reptile for the glory of Satan

Just a fragile shell of a human being.